A few people have asked me about my breastfeeding experience. As a first-time mum, I went into this thinking ‘how hard can it be?! Don’t you just put the kid on your nip and bobs-your-uncle?!” haha oh how I was SO wrong. Breastfeeding is one of the hardest things, physically and mentally, that I have had to do. For some women, it is lovely and without many problems, but for me it was horrible, hard, and hurtful.
I had a natural birth with no drugs (not my choice, I wanted that epi so BAD, but we had no time!), so little Carter came out very alert and hungry. I spent 4 days in hospital and during that time used the midwives to help me figure out if I was breastfeeding correctly. My boy was really good – he latched well and knew how to suck straight away. But the little critter wanted to eat every 30minutes during the first few days and my poor nips just were not coping. It was horribly painful and so many people kept saying ‘it must be because he isn’t latching right,’ but you know what I put it down too – of course it hurts, nipples are sensitive, it even hurts to shower so having a strong alert little human trying to suck their food out of them is not going to feel pleasant.
I breastfed and expressed for 2 weeks until I got a flu and my milk completely dropped off within 24hours. I then had to/wanted to introduce formula. Ahhhhh the formula wagon – holy shit there are A LOT of formulas and HOW THE HELL are you supposed to know WHICH ONE to choose?!!! We started with S26 Gold which made the poor guy constipated and he started getting colic. I still breastfed up until he was 6weeks old, but only did 2 feeds per day and the other 13 feeds (yes he was a hungry boy) were formula.
After 6 weeks I stopped breastfeeding and he was exclusively formula fed. The formula journey was just as hard. We tried 5 formulas until we found one that worked with his tiny digestive system. We finally settled on Karicare De-Lact and Infacol on occasion to help get burps up. I’ve just introduced Life Space Baby Probiotic Powder too.
I must admit I did feel guilt when I gave up breastfeeding BUT I look down at this little chubba and at 13weeks old he is a very healthy 7kg and starting to get too big for 00 clothing so we must be doing something right. Trust your motherly instincts and although everyone says ‘breast is best’…it is not necessarily the best option for mum.